Well one month passed. I was one of the best employees she had, very knowledgeable, never complaining, working long hours when no one else was available, never trying to con the client or the employer, never dreaming of pilfering supplies, and always standing by the boss - (without brown nosing)- following every rule, no idiotic things like inappropriate behavior in an office setting, no internet browsing except for official purpose- no watchign streaming games on the sly, knew my technology better than anyone working with me- yet never bragged about it- did the impossible by designing a structure that no one in their right mind knew how to. What was I doing wrong?
Anyways a month after the "bonus talk"- here she was calling me for a one-on-one.
" Purist, I have no complaints about your knowledge, your ethics or the fact that you are a hard worker!"
all green lines are my unsaid thoughts!!
(Awright- FINALLY I'm getting the promotion I richly deserve!)
Your behavior is the best and your knowledge is respected.
"Somehow I get confused when I deal with you"
Confused? I never deal work wise with you!
" somehow you tell me what you think you want me to hear"
Eh" what do you want to hear and when do I talk to you about work??
Eh? Come again- confused- can you explain-
Yes- somehow you are not conductive- to work .
OKAY! so my dear it's not Conductive- it's ConduCIVE!!"
Employers- please do no think your employees are idiots- this is what happens when you are told what to Say instead of saying what it is like.
You poor thing- someone actually put you through the motions- only the lack of experience drops you down!!
Right now I should have been mortified- instead I was trying hard not to laugh at this rather juvenile attempt.
I am not going to try to figure out how I can be one of the best, and be so good yet not be conduc(t)ive.
( Next time- please get someone who knows how to do this).
Looking back what could I have done better? I was cited for good behavior, for community volunteering, for being well behaved. Then obviously I think who else could have been feeling scared with my presence- oh yes- all those who knew their craft lesser than I and felt that I would eat them up! I wish you had waited and watched- did I really act as if I would have eaten you up- Not Possible- you should have had the courage of your convictions.
I knew that you were stealing. I knew that you were lying. I knew that you were very scared and threatened with the fact that every time you spoke technically and had me around- you were scared that I'd open my mouth and expose you. Why did you not instead see me as a team player. Why did you not think- maybe you could have played to your strengths instead of trying to cover your weaknesses. Why did you have to act defensive and write long emails hoping that I would not reply- knowing fully well that I could question every silly word that you wrote. WHy did your ego not allow you to understand that your lack of good English language skills were p****ing of clients??
Finally why did you not leave your ego at the door like every one else- and do only the job that you were paid for instead of trying to read others emails, trying to be a control freak and getting into bigger and bigger lies? Why was it necessary to argue about everything. Everyone does not know about everything- so why did you try to show that you did? You do understand that now everyone knows the lies you said. I did not encourage it- now everyone else talks about it!! Finally was all of this worth it.
No it is never!
Now you have a bigger detractor outside! The only thing I can do is forgive you- since first you need to work on the inner ethics that you so often circumvent. Hope you get this message the right way. I know that sliminess never gets you anywhere. I would have spoken- then what would happen to your home? I can live on. Think about it when you look in the mirror.
What now- displaced workers websites?
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